I stand in this line, but I can’t help but be honest.
In solitude I cease to pray, today I’ll empty my conscience; I suppose it’s for the eyes of these persons, because as the days pass, my connection worsens.
I claim that it’s hard to explain, but the truth is that my uneducated brain lacks that of which a true Muslim contains.
My Salaat is not maintained. It has become but a social gesture. I mean… it helps combat the pressures of two contrasting societies; one, that puts its faith in the economy, and the other through means of peace.
I’ve come to the belief that, I can’t keep both worlds intact. Give me a minute and I’ll be right back. This self-criticism feels like attack.
Each mirror I pass, I stand and reflect, because I know this life has a greenhouse effect.
It’s hard to believe truth that we cannot feel, but my conscience eats at me and leaves scars that are real.
He whispers “Gone are Fajr and Dhuhr, anyway”. By Shaitaan I sway… I comfort myself and say “Tomorrow’s another day”.
A shame it is that this is so easy to admit, yet, consequently a task to digest: that man gets and so easily he forgets.
And I preach to my children that Islam is their Deen, but ahead of that comes A+’s and big money dreams $$$
My name is Muhammad, but I don’t deserve the title. Because what that man did for our history was vital.
Colorblind I am to the beauties of this Quran, black and white it seems as I barely understand.
And isn’t it just grand, how we live on common land? In the pot were melting, we begin to taste bland.
Can you pass the salt and pepper please? This is not who I want to be.
MARIAM HALABI ©